I am Jewish, but I don't believe our "God" is different. We are all so interconnected, all of us. Our Tikva spoke to us when she was in my belly and asked that we allow her story to unfold. When people asked why I didn't just terminate the pregnancy, I told them that it was not up to me - but rather up to Tikva and God. We were all right - Tikva's short life was a miracle. I wish more than anything that she could have made it, that she could have stayed so much longer. But just the simple fact of her being was the miracle of her life. Sometimes it makes no sense to me, but I trust that Tikva now exists as pure energy, nestled within God, deeply a part of all that is - as we all are, really. If we can only remember that...
author finds her baby's existence in itself miraculous and meaningful
baby now exists as pure energy simple fact of existence is meaning