Thank you Joanna for replying. For me its also terrifying to look at woman who are pregnant and sometimes it makes me mad that I did not know of thing I know now. But it is very comforting to be on the site, it helps me get through this bad feeling although its only been 4 weeks since Zandre died and my emotions is still very much up and down. I think I want to get pregnant very soon cause I wont forget Zandre or my feelings will get lighter but not go away, just to know that there is a possibility that we could bring a baby home makes me think life is not that bad.
Just wish that our stories will also be important as all other illnesses, cause if I have know about stillborn, or NICU more I would have know what to ask my doctor or what to look out for as my body changes.
I'm sorry to hear about your boy and know that God has a plan for all of us, we will only get the answers when we see our babies ones we get home to them one day
comfort in "God's plan"