Author: 
Eve
ID: 
014c
Type of Post: 
discussion
Keywords: 
God
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Date of Post: 
3/13/2010
Date of Access: 
6/28/2012
URL of post: 
http://www.glowinthewoods.com/ttc-pregnancy-birth/post/1028612#post1028921

I am not able to post on any other BabyLoss website the further I get in this pregnancy. The thought of everything that could go wrong before Abby is born is just too much for me. Renting the doppler was the best choice I made in the days after Will died. Sometimes I even use it despite her kicking, just to make sure her heart is beating fast enough.

I guess I'm grateful, in some ways, this is my last pregnancy, and I won't have to face this intense fear after losing a baby. But losing Will at the same time as carrying Abby...it is a testament (for me) that God works to give me peace, b/c I think I would be in an insane asylum if were left completely up to me.

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