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I realize that this is not the kind of response you were looking for with the prompts you left at the end but I just need to say something, I don't know if this is the right place to do it so I'm sorry if I am violating the point of all this....
On Tuesday it will be 4 months since we lost our son...and I desperately wish I could find something like you described to relieve us. I am realizing through your post that my fiance and I are walking that line between depression and grief and I couldn't place my finger on it... We can't talk to anyone about our loss because everyone always has terrible advice or meaningless quips about life or God or trying again, or expects us to listen to their story about how their grandmother or dog died... yes, of course, all losses are painful and valid but frankly I am not in a place where I can care for or about anyone else except my family and myself... and even that is too much most days. I will not hold someone up while they whine about how hard life is when I can barely find a reason to keep living mine most days.
Evidently I am selfish and absorbed in my own pain and anger, and its all I can manage right now. Everything seems meaningless. I see a counselor occasionally but apparently I'm not doing the work or it's just not helping... Your description of acupuncture and pouring your heart out to someone who was just simply willing to listen, someone you did not have to "take care" of, sounded wonderful
I used to be very motivated by self-care and awareness. I wish I could find that peace again. The search for it just seems like an empty cause right now.