Sending love and peace to everyone and wishing you gentle Christmas's. Especially those of you facing your first Christmas. We went to Christmas mass last night (DH's family are Catholic) and it was more emotional than I expected (I'm not religious but have to imagine Matilda is somewhere out there or it's all too hard). We were sitting on the lawn outside and there were little girls running around everywhere and I watched and wondered how old they were and thought about Matilda. Everyone said the Lord's prayer and I remembered hearing it for the last time in the NICU as Matilda was being baptised.