her Name (comment)

[We named our baby] Theodore - gift of god. Considering what has happened to my faith since his death this seems almost a misnomer, but I keep hoping that, in the long run, perhaps it's not. It's such a big name, I thought (and still think) for such a little guy. He made it his, somehow, but I wish I'd been able to watch him grow from our little Teddy into that big name. His middle name, Isaac, means laughter, and I chose it because I was so astounded and surprised to be pregnant, and surprised to be so happy about being pregnant, and because I wanted all kinds of laughter for him. I hope Bea and C are right, and that he's laughing somewhere - in the skies or in the trees or around that corner I can never see behind.