LOVE this and relate so fully and completely to having your bubble "burst". I never thought I was naive. I had a miscarriage and saw tragedy in my life. But I still NEVER in a million years thought that "God" would suddenly and randomly take ONE of my twins a week before my induction date. I never entertained that idea, not in a million years. I felt protected somehow. Maybe it was because I was past all the danger zones and risks I had been warned about, who knows. What a kick in the gut.
As far as quirks? I have none. I don't feel safe and will never feel protected ever again. This world makes absolutely no rhyme or reason to me and never will. But, like you, when I do feel happy, I feel it fiercely, aggressively, as you said - defiantly.
Perfect.
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139a
Type of Post:
comment
Keywords:
God
Religious Affiliation:
Christian
Type of Loss:
stillbirth (surviving twin)
Codes (Bakker):
Age at time of post:
unknown
Living children at time of post?:
yes
Time Since Loss:
5 months
Months since loss (at time of post):
5
Gender:
F
Images in Post:
NA
Date of Post:
5/21/2011
Date of Access:
7/10/2012
Number of Comments:
NA
URL of post:
http://www.glowinthewoods.com/home/2011/5/9/tempting-fate.html#comment12953793
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