ID:
150
Type of Post:
discussion
Keywords:
universe
Religious Affiliation:
unknown
Type of Loss:
stillbirth
Codes (Bakker):
Age at time of post:
unknown
Living children at time of post?:
no
Time Since Loss:
9 months (Aug. 2010)
Months since loss (at time of post):
9
Gender:
F
Images in Post:
NA
Date of Post:
4/14/2011
Date of Access:
7/11/2012
Number of Comments:
NA
URL of post:
http://www.glowinthewoods.com/ttc-pregnancy-birth/post/1460476#post1463804
Jill -- same thoughts planted here; boy guess at 12 weeks now confirmed. I realized I had been bargaining with the universe: you took away my girl, give me another one and I'll consider you a little more just. No. I could have seventeen daughters after this guy and the anguish of losing my first would not go away.
That doesn't mean I don't want a daughter eventually though...and that I don't wistfully think about all her clothes ready to go. Just a way to cope with the adjustment!
PS -- M: congrats. Missed telling you that as the progesterone discussion continued. Sticky thoughts.
Codes (Paris):
Comments (Bakker):
bargaining with the universe