It is so good to have a catch up of how everyone is doing. Those of you TTC - you are all on my heart. Praying for a Glow In The Woods BABY BOOM!!!!!
In now 23.5 weeks... was only vaguely aware of the "viable" mark at 24 weeks... that's exciting. Eliza you can be dam sure I will be celebrating that. That's in a way how I'm getting through this pregnancy: surviving from one milestone to the next. 12 weeks - celebrate. Every uneventful scan - celebrate. I am doing kick counting (yes yes, I know it is about a month too early still, but it keeps me sane) and even a successful 10 kicks feels like a cause for celebration.
I am scared. I am scared by my confidence. My nature has always been optimistic but we all know that optimism is not enough. Even faith is not enough. People say "it's all going to be fine, you need to trust God".
Actually I did trust God and I DO trust God but that doesnt mean a baby won't die. It means that He won't leave me or forsake me.
THe other day a colleague heard I was pregnant and she asked if I'd decided whether or not I wanted to keep the baby.
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People!!!!!
Anyway this is turning into a very mixedup little rant :) sorry!
Thinking of you all and praying we'll all be able to celebrate new lives soon enough xxx